Sam: Spits The Truth.: March 2011

It's crazy....how things just happen out of no where.

Today at school, all seniors including myself, received graduation packets. It had like, all this information in it about the dates we were out, and rehearsals and all that good stuff.

Wow.....It's really gonna happen. The separation from being a teenager to being an adult. It's cool, but....it's kinda sad at the same time.

I've realized so much about myself. This year, was certainly not the easiest for me. It was crazy, and the drama was more than expected. But I got through. To the point of now, my graduation and my final leave. I've learned that High school is nothing.....but a whole bunch of walls. You bump into one, you learn, you stay out of trouble and you grow. All through high school, you build your social skills. And when you're done with it......you're just done with it. And on top of all that learning, you also learn who the real you is.

I put up this picture of R. J. Berger.....because my whole high school career....this is who I really was, and still am. I mean, everyone likes me and everyone thinks I'm pretty chill you know....but at the end of the day, I'm just a kid trying to get by and do the right thing. I bet this is exactly what every other kid wants.....but in high school, nobody admits stuff like that, because nobody listens to the kids that say things like that. You're either in good with a certain group, or you're by yourself. That's the way it is.....and that's the way it's always been.

I've always said that....In high school nobody wants to be a loser. But...see, the "losers", are really the winners.

My friends call me a dork sometimes....because I'm smarter, because I have panic attacks just trying to get to class on time, because my homework may not always be done but is always done and turned in on time reguardless, whatever have you.....But that's fine.

See...there is a difference. There's the losers, who are like me. They have they're own sense of style....speech....intelligence, and they just so happen to be nerds, who have better grades then most, and probably have never been a part of anything bigger than the marching band. Although, I must say in my case, I was all over. So maybe I'm a little bit higher than that. And then, there's the failures. The ones that go to school, but there's really no point because they have no aspirations to ever become anything, they care more about they're reputations and can never be unique, because they're too busy trying to fit in with everybody else, and they've probably never been a part of anything bigger than a clique or crew....that usually never has their backs when the time comes.

People seem to get being a loser and a failure mixed up. And they just aren't the same thing.

I accept being my loser self.....because this is my destiny. I was meant to be successful....I was meant to not play dumb and follow the leader....And I was meant to give a damn about my future. Failures.....are not structured in this fashion.

But of coarse in high school.....no one cares.

And I mean, who am I to say....?

With whatever happens.....I just gotta be me. I have yet to meet someone in my life that doesn't like me.....And if there is someone that doesn't.....It really wouldn't make a difference.

In all.....One thing I know for sure.....:

There will never in life be another me. Not a soul, reincarnation, or even a look-alike, that will ever fill my shoes.

.....I have spoken.