+Feelings at the moment....?

: This is an example of the things that we all do when we're bored. We stay online all night long and we listen to music on the loudest of loudest volume and then we wait for everybody else to leave so then we can stop pretending that we're actually doing something and start doing the things we really wanna do, like eat the whole kitchen and watch nasty movies. At least.... That's what I feel like.... ;)

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-I Wear It For You.

For a long time, I didn't really think that I could come to terms with myself.... I still don't really think that I have completely, but, I've changed a lot and I've grown to be someone that is better than any other me I have ever been. That alone, takes a very long time to see and say...

I've recently really have been getting into the whole tweeting every second phase of my life.... I admit I made a Twitter account much later than people in my generation, despite the fact that I'm only 18. But I guess everyone doesn't always transition into everything the same way as everyone else does.

I see a lot of tweets about sex....relationships....and women.

I see a lot of stuff about these things in general, but having a Twitter and being on there constantly throughout the day just makes the world seem like such a smaller place and things are constantly in your face a lot more...

I used to think that I was very sexually awkward.... And I mean, I still do to an extent.

I don't think I'll ever really have that big O. That big O that women have when they've fucked a guy that fucked them so hard they had to catch their breathe to keep up with them... That O is an infamous one. One I have yet to have.

I feel like throughout my life to this point in time, I can say that I've fucked quite a few people.... I feel like in most cases I've been in good control of all my situations intamatly with males. I still feel that there's a lot that I have internally that I need to get rid of though.... My feelings and personal insecurities....

The truth is: It doesn't matter how much you tell yourself that you're different and that you've changed.... You can't run away from the fact that you're the same person that you've always been....and that you're just trying really hard to tell yourself that you're different so that you can really just start over and build a whole new person that was never there that maybe other people will like....but that's not really you...

I've learned to accept now that at times I've done this as well.

I've recently thought a lot about becoming celibate and abstaining from having sex totally. But I already know that even if I were to actually keep to my word and do that, that I would be greatly unhappy.... It wouldn't solve anything.... Staying away from sex would only push me to go crazier when I finally have sex.

I think I thought about becoming celibate more when I started to see what sex was doing to me socially. I hate ignoring people that I know....even if I know that I have to and there's nothing that I can do about it, other than talk to them....but some people really just need to be ignored. That awkwardness... is something that I felt would not exsist if I didn't just fuck people.... And if I wasn't fucking at all, then I wouldn't use anyone for sex because I wouldn't be having sex.... So I thought.

I know that's not really what I want to do though....it isn't.

Relationships take a lot of work and a lot of time....that I don't have.

All my energy is towards me before anything and anyone. I think that's a good thing though, cause that means I will never be thinking that much about a guy that I go ba-zerk and self destruct or something crazy like that. But at the same time, it's really selfish and it makes people really not wanna be around you because you think only of you and no one else....

I see-saw on whether or not I really want to be in a relationship or if I don't....

I get lonely at times, as do we all.... But uhm... I get more time to think about my priorities and the things that will make me a better person instead of using all of my energy to think about someone else.... A man.

I really honeslty, don't ever want to think about a man that much.

I just don't.

Women break their backs to be that bitch.... That bitch.

I personally have a huge love for make-up and cosmetics.

I started wearing make-up when I was in middle school.... I saw how people reacted towards me when I had make-up on my face and when I didn't. I got very carried away with it, and it progressed. It got heavier......and heavier....and heavier. To the point where I was wearing at least 3 good shades of concealer on my face.... All from different brands. It took longer and longer for me to apply my make-up on a daily basis because I was wearing so much more than I needed to..... And give or take, I was only about 12 to 13 years of age.

Today, I still love make-up with a passion.

Eyeshadow palettes of all sorts, brushes with all fuctions, bronzers and blushes, the whole nine.... you name it.... I've done it.... I'm doing it... And I don't plan on stopping anytime soon.

I wear make-up more today though, because I respect the craft and the art of wearing make-up. I can afford to go some days without it and be fine... Where before in middle school, I was so insecure and dependent on my make-up, that without it, I wouldn't even go to school.

Men never realise the hardships that they put women through..... the agony.

And they wonder why every bitch in the world wants to be Barbie...

Because that's the image that every man instills in a females mind.

Women.... we wear make-up, and we always do our nails, and we always get our hair done, and we always shop for the best clothes.... because every girl wants to be the fantasy that every guy dreams of.

I want to be the girl you see when you close your eyes and dream at night.... I wanna look so good that you can't even get away from me in your sleep.

That's why women do these things.

The long hair....The big hair....The polished nails....The always prepped make-up....The expensive clothes and shoes....The sexy fragrance that makes him hard from all the way across the room..... All those things we want, but we don't even want them for ourselves.... We want them because they make us look like we're the fantasy.... The women he sees in his dreams.

Every woman wants to be that bitch that everyone wants to be....

But....What people fail to see is...

While you're dreaming so long and hard about being that bitch that every woman wants to be.... Who is going to be you....?

Who....?

For a while, I debated on whether or not I should get rid of my braids and start new and fresh....but then I realised....

My braids are what sets me apart from all these other women.

If I wore my natural hair or got a weave or sew-in, I'd be.... So regular. So the same.. There would be nothing about me that would make me stand out in a room full of women...

There's nothing wrong with expressing beauty through any of these things. But personally, they would just make me look like a clone copy of everyone else. And that's just me.

And I see so many women take away the beautiful things that make them stand out in a room filled with women.... Because they're so worried about being everyone else's bestfriend...

I would never get rid of something that sets me apart from everyone else..

I need to start loving myself.... And being honest with myself about myself.

I can think very harshly at times.... I can be a bitch. I can make it seem like everything's a joke and that I'm so fucking happy.... But I know that deep inside, some guy did something to me that made me feel this way about guys... And I know that without that particualr experience, I would not be thinking like this in a million years. So I need to free myself of this guilt...and embarrasment that I've hidden so well under this make-up....and these clothes....and this hair.

I need to accept that I can't change every flaw I have and make it better over night, because that's not real life.

....

"I may not be a lady... But I'm all woman."

-Lisa Stanfield.

With Love

-Make-Up At It's Finest.

If this isn't the cutest thing I've ever seen in a long time, then I don'r know what is. This chicks boyfriend decided to assist his girlfriend with her make-up. Lol, does he do a good job?