-......What?

Fresh out the shower, thinking about what tomorrow is going to bring me.

This Friday, I'm due to go to my University and tour it. I don't know what to think of it.....and I'm kinda nervous. But then again, it's like.....why should I be...

This is exactly what I wanted, right....?

Mhm.

I'm probably not that happy with where I am now in my life....But I'm sure as hell happy that I'm not where I was.

If you ever find yourself feeling as if you're going backwards, then that's an issue. If you see that even though you're probably going through shit, you're still progressing, then you're probably in better shape than you think you are.

I tend to find myself lost at times.

....Most of the time.

Like I could either be at school or with my friends, or even in the privacy of my own room, and I'll just stare into blankness and think.

Think like......where am I going right now......?

Those are usually the times when I start to feel unhappy.....and so then I try to find good things in my life that I'm doing that will make me feel "happy"...But sometimes I just give up, and go to bed. It's always been hard for me to be truly happy. I'm probably the most depressed person I know.....In the sense that what other people hold to be important, just aren't that serious to me.

I don't know what to be worried about sometimes.....so I either just become worried about everything, or worried about nothing.

I know.....it's difficult. But it's my life.

I look forward to Friday....

I don't know what to expect, but...it's progress. So I must be doing something right.