It's Real

So yesterday was my big moving day and I was excited.... But none of my roommates-to-be were really of any help and....as happy as I am to have finally left my horrible past living situation, I'm not really feeling like crashing on a couch for roughly two months either with all of my stuff scrambled in various bags....

I guess that's just life for me right now though.

I guess at this point I can say that I've been faced with quite a couple horrible living situations.... But I guess that's what makes you immune to it. I'm really not complaining though, cause I'll be at work from what was 9 AM - 5 PM, to 8 AM - 5 PM.

Tough crowd isn't it?

I can dig it though.

I am extremely thankful for having found a place.... moving out of my old place... work... and of course, money. All things that I've been working up to... So I guess everything just kinda fell into place the way they were all supposed to.

It's like going home has become a thing of the past... I stay on campus more often these days. Besides work, I really don't have anything else that is really keeping me at school. But I have come to the conclusion that with all the crazy arguments that have taken place while I was at home this semester, that home is just dead.

Everyone comes to a time in their life where they have to move on and move up. This is me taking my turn I guess.

I'm always the one kid that always has to hear about someones parents getting a divorce... Someone getting pregnant.... Someone dropping out.... Someone getting kicked out.... Basically I always have to hear about someone else's life taking a turn for the real.

And.... My life has always been pretty stagnant, until college. Then everything changed.

I know people usually finish that type of sentence off with a "for the better" or "for the worse". I said for the Real, because when people grow up and get hit with the parents that can't support them anymore, or are forced to have to turn their backs on the household they've known for years due to growing and finding themselves, it's never really the best because we all struggle to make it ourselves and prove a point to the world and our families.... But it's never the worse because it doesn't matter how bad you may think you have it, there is always someone out there that is going through hella more outrageous shit that you don't even know about.

It's just real life. It's the real.

I find that writing helps me a lot.... Despite the fact that I haven't really been blogging as often as I usually do, coming back to it I realize that the reason behind me creating this site for myself was not just to vent but to really express the type of person I am.... To express the way I see the world in all aspects.... And people read and people listen. And people may never do anything with a word that I write or say.... But people still listen and still read.

It's like a hidden power. Or at least that's what it's always been to me....

That's why I am really on point with revamping the the site.... Refreshing the page.... Not just for more views. But because I want the people who view the page to actually look at the page as a person.... Who lives and breathes and has a lot to talk about that coincides and can help someone else's life.

I don't want any of my readers to feel like their alone basically.... Because I think my personal loneliness at times is what lead me to embark on this 4-5 year blog page.

That I love. And I love everyone else who finds a passion in writing and expression.......

But... Yeah. That's just what it is for the time being.