Ok Much....?

So I've been home for my break now for some time now. I actually ran into some good luck tonight. I reunited with my old boss, who told me to giver her a call, and it turns out: She's going to become a manager of another company and she is once again offering me another job. So thankfully, I am no longer looking for work. I just have to wait a while for her to get into the business, and I am indeed covered.

So that is some great news, and I'm really happy for that.

On another note, I've been kinda lonely. I got out like 2 good times since I've been home. The first was a trip to the Columbia Mall with a friend in which I drove. It was a little crazy, but, it was what it was. The second was last night, staying out all night with a close friend and his close friend, along with his friend's female friend. Watched some movies, ate some pizza, cracked a couple jokes. It was actually refreshing.

So I come back home, and I expected for my mother to have had something to say to me after calling me up in the middle of me eating out and upset because I wasn't at home at a certain time......But we actually never ended up talking about it.

I have to admit.....it was kinda weird.

I'm so used to having that happen to me from my mother and assuming from experience, that I'm gonna come home to this crazy ass reaction and I'm gonna have to explain myself and shit......But this time, I really didn't have to.

And it's OK, because I'm thankful for that to.

As my night progressed, I came to the point at which I'm at now where I'm sitting here on my laptop and drinking hot tea while listening to some new music. Everything's all good. And then:

I get a text message from my college fling that I had relations with and that I can't seem to shake off for the life of me.

Yes.......No.

Sometimes, I'll be glad to engage into a conversation with him, no problem. And other times, it just gets a little weird, only because of the weird past that we shared. But I mean, that wasn't my fault. And I can be pretty awkward, but I just hate living in a weird and uncomfortable friendship with someone.......Just break the damn ice already.

He texted me......said hey, and asked me what I was doing. I said my hello, and told him what I was doing and asked him the same question right back. Then, he texted me back asking me if I wanted to take pictures and send them back and fourth.......So sexting. (For all you virgin minds.)

I said no. I said I wasn't in the mood, and that I was busy.........And I thought that the conversation was going so well before I said no, and then all of a sudden: No more text messages.

I mean, I did expect it, because I mean he's really not anything important in my life so what other way is he supposed to act you know? Figures. But still.......It just means something. Something that I can't just ignore....Because it urks me a little bit that you would lift a finger and waste your time.....just to text a female for something as petty as a couple of pictures. And then, when you get told that it's a no go......you get upset and give up.....? I mean, you don't have to talk about your life or anything crazy like that....But it's like obvious shit you know. Like the rules to the pussy.....

1. You have to respect it. Don't disrespect the girl that's fucking you, even if you feel like she deserves it.

2. I mean talk to her. When you see her in a room full of people, just walk up to her and greet her. It's nothing.....but it's something. Because once you start fucking someone, you can't just walk around like they don't exist. Even if that's all you guys do.

3. And lastly....become close with her. Care about when she's busy......what she did in the day....what she's doing when you hit her up. It might just be a piece of ass now....but you never know when that "piece of ass" might just be the girl that saves your life one day. They usually are the girls who are always there anyway. They deserve the best.....Stop making yourself so obvious when you want something......It's unattractive.

It's like.....I can't stand it. But I'm tired of talking. If he can't see it, then he's not trying to. He's not fucking dumb......Dude, you're in college. You know damn well how I feel about everything. So done with explaining myself. And certainly done with trying to make friends out of guys that just what one thing.

It's like the saying, you can't turn a whore into a housewife.....

Because you can't. Because even if she acts straight for a moment, she will flip as soon as she sees that she's gotten exactly what she wanted from acting the way you expected her to.....And that's not genuine. It has to come from within. From a place that no one can talk the way to......That shit just has to come out.

So I'm done.

You wanna be a fucked up ass jerk. Then be one. You might think you got it good now.....But I personally think that the guys that have it the best are the ones that have the girls that wanna make them better themselves. So I think the worst, is that if he refuses to change, well he can live that way for the rest of his life. Not my business, not my problem.

Life catches up with everybody eventually.

Wooh.....

Wtf am I gonna do when I get up tomorrow...?? If I even get up after this long ass night.

Lol.