+Well...

I'm hurting....I'm bored....

I've actually been hurting a lot these past few days....And it's not cause I'm on my period or anything typical like that. It's weird.....And I'm starting to seriously think it has something to do with the food.

Or the people....You get tired of certain kinds of people after a while....

When I walk to class, like....I don't even anticipate it anymore.

I used to get all weird inside walking to class.....Just walking to class. Because either I would be excited....or I would be nervous....Or I would be trying to avoid seeing someone on my way.

But now, I don't feel like that anymore...

I just feel blank....Like I just feel like I'm not walking around expecting anthing from anyone anymore....I don't expect certain things to happen....And I'm more open to the unexpected.

Everyone you meet has something behind them. It may be good....It may be bad, but either way, it's there. Sometimes it's not worth finding out. And I mean, honestly, no one even has the time for all that....Then again, some people just push you towards getting to know them....Almost as if you have too.

Personally, I think that all the people that you meet were and are people that you were supposed nto meet. Like I always think like....why did certain people that I know, even start talking to me....Me? Of all people.

When I think too hard about it sometimes it starts to aggitate me....Because it's like, it's something that I am never gonna get the answer to...Ever.

I mean there's reasons that people can say....You can be attracted to someone by the way that they look, or the way that they smile or the various people that they choose to talk to....

But I mean.....There's always a more inner reason for why you talk to someone....

I don't know....Maybe that's just the way that I think about things.

Figure It Out Yourself

Well....It's been a minute.

I'm tired of these long intervals of time that go by without me blogging....Some I can help, and others I can't really do anything about it.

It's not like I'm not blogging because I'm having the time of life...That would be completely different if that was the case.

I've been having a lot of new expierences latly....?

I question that because it being "new" doesn't make it the best.

There's a lot of people I've probably met in the past few weeks....I can probably say I would be fine without. Like, I'd probably be better off if I didn't know some people....because some people don't help you, and you always end up having to help them.....But it should be both ways.

If you always find that in your group of people, you're always the way they can get anywhere....The only way they can figure anything out.....You really shouldn't be in that group of people. They can't think for themselves......ever.

I wanna find people that are better than me....That way I can be better than what I think I can be.

I'm surrounded my bitches, hoes, sluts, dummy's, chicken heads on a daily basis....

What about the girls, females, conservative, productive, women??

This is the type of shit that makes people wanna transfer schools...Because they can't mesh and find a happy median with the enviorment that they are given.

I don't really feel like I haven't settled....I just feel like if settling means letting people put you in stupid situations that you know you shouldn't be in....then that's that's not cool.

Some people....They wanna bring out your worst. They wanna see your attitude...They wanna see just how mad you can get. They will ask you to do things and go places.....they honestly know you wouldn't normally do or go to. Like....And they'll still push you to that point. And then once you catch an attitude or say something....

You're a bitch.

Or you just suck.

Either way....it's like.....wtf.

I'm not playing the role of the sacrificil scape goat anymore...

If there's 4 heads in one group, then all the heads should be working.....Not just one.

VAN's

Just purchased: Van's, Zapato Lo Pro, Native Suede/brown.





I went to the mall on a mission to get some new Van's the other night. It was pretty crazy. I actually ended up having to go to a whole other mall just to get the right fit but I mean it was really fun.

Overall though, I really just put this up to tell females that are getting Van's shoes: That them shits run a size big!!

I don't care what anyone says. I was looking at the lime green highlighter ones that I got nearly a year ago now, and I thought that I purchased a size 10, because that's my original size. Turns out, they are really a size 9.5, and the new ones I got are a size 9.

A women's size 10 is a men's size 8. Their women's size 10 is a men's size 8.5.

.....That's incorrect. And I know that for a fact because when I would go sneaker shopping, especially for my Nike dunks, I studied this so I would get the perfect fit because I was ordering them online. They came in, in a men's size 8. Fit perfectly, even to this day.

So Van's is on some other shit.

Either way, you should go a size down, or half a size down, depending on the shoe.

The cloth shoes are different from the suede ones. The cloth ones will stretch out more and the suede shoes are a little tighter. They hug your feet more. Either way though, once you break any of them in, they WILL stretch and sway, so getting the PERFECT fit is important.

....Got my shoes....Even if it says size 9 instead of size 10.