Another Lonely Night...

Well, telling by the tittle, there can only be one thing that this entry is about.

A lonely night. Once again.

Time for the random sentimental thoughts to take place now.

So what is Sam Spits The Truth thinking about at this second...?

Well, sex of course. As if that ever escapes my mind... Then there's my room, that's a mess. I keep telling my mom that I'll get around to it.... I keep lying to myself. It's just that when things get so messy and out of control you get a little scared of tackling it I guess.... That's how I always feel when my room gets to be a little out of control.... I just let it increase to the point of no return. Then there's also school and social life that I think about a little more often now these days too.

I usually have a couple people that I can talk to when it gets to be this late....

But I guess tonight I have some space to collect some of my thoughts.

It has come to my attention today, that someone I met my freshmen year of college will not be, or might not be, attending my school again next semester.

I was looking through his twitter.... Just browsing when I came across a conversation that he had with a friend and apparently, he isn't coming back.

Damn....

I took the whole summer to get over everything that had happened..... to the point where I really can say without a doubt that I'm completely good. I'm over it, happy, laughing at the situation and everything....

When you're that accomplished, even when you don't care about the other party anymore... You still want them to see you happy and better. Cause it just feels so damn good to know that they know that they can't have you.....

But.... he's gone I guess.

It's like when you're really mean to someone and you really like torturing them for fun.... but despite it, you would never want them to actually die or anything. Because you still want them to be around.... You'd rather have them there to laugh at then to see them go six feet under....

That's kinda how I feel.

I'd rather have him here to ignore and make fun of....then for him to be gone and just completely out of my life.....forever....

But.... It is what it is.

Whether he comes back or he doesn't.... I'mma do me cause that's all I can be.

Him leaving might just be what's best for me anyways.

Although I really did want to face the new semester head on, with him there.

Oh well.

Saya-nara bitch.

On another note:

I'm very lonely tonight...... Too lonely to be satisfied.

Maybe I should force myself to sleep....? Which I hate doing with a passion, but it's the only thing that will kill this need inside me right now for some sort of friendly attention....

Rest...

-10 Random Sam Spits The Truth Facts Moment!-

1. I take serious pride in my complexion. I could care less if I was any lighter or darker.

2. I like weed now. Woop-di-doo right.

3. I always wonder if I can stay the size that I am now for the rest of my life.... I really want to.

4. I want to get more nail polish. I don't have enough variety.

5. I don't really like when my mom tells me what I should do with my money. I don't tell her what to do.

6. Dreamcatchers are the shit.

7. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I was Hispanic.

8. I think that Guy Code should have been on television a long ass time ago. Shit is funny.

9. I think things are always better done then said.

10. If you don't fuck with any aspect of Odd Future or any artist involved in Odd Future what so ever: Fuck, You.

In: E. X. T. R. A.

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-Eyes That Never Close.

Back from work, home again.... Happy to be here but there's really nothing that I'm doing that's any different from work besides the fact that I'm just sitting here.

...... Whatever.

I got no sleep last night at all. Which is funny because I stay on the phone every night, all night. Last night though, I actually decided that I was gonna put myself to sleep a little bit earlier though. Earlier, being 3:00 AM in the morning?

Yeah.... Maybe that was still late as fuck.

Either way, I normally should have been knocked out as soon as I stopped the phone conversation.... Especially because I stopped it to go to bed anyway. So I really don't understand why it was so hard...

Usually when I can't go to sleep, I alternate to listening to my music.

I say that I'm only gonna listen to one song..... But I usually end up listening to several songs and then I actually want to listen to my iPod, then I wanna be on my iPhone, then my ass just doesn't go to sleep till niggas is wakin' up to go to work.

This is not the life.

Because when I'm up in the morning, I'm restless. It's like I want so very much to go to bed, but I can't because I actually got shit to do.

As soon as I wake up, I have to drive.

Do you have any idea how fucking hard it is to drive when you went to bed no more than one hour ago....?

Eyes low and shit....

And then I got my brothers in the car.

So I can't just fuck up and kill all of us.

That's not cool.

I need to work on my sleep schedule. I'm very aware of this.

I would usually after talking about something like this, have some type of advice for my veiwers on what to do in a similar situation if you can't sleep..... But I really don't have any advice because nothing works for me. So maybe when I figure some shit out, then I'll tell you guys.

I don't really know right now though.

I Knocked His Azz Out: Lil' Scrappy On Beating On Stevie J! {Audio}

"He ended up in the hospital while me and my baby momma went home!" Lmfao.

Some Male Honesty!!!

Kain Carter: I can't help but to fuck with this dude. Preach that.

Wanted Tattoos & Peircings

I've got my eyes set on getting a dream catcher on my back. I think that's a good spot to place it, but I just don't know how big it'll be and what all I want it to look like. So maybe something like this.

Or perhaps something a little bit bigger but on my back, like this.

But not too, too big though.

I really don't know..... Although I do know that I plan on doing it in the range of me turning 19 to me turning 21. So I got a while to re-consider and all that. But this tattoo is certainly one that I'd be getting, unlike all the other past tattoo ideas that I had that never fell through cause thank God to my mom for stopping me. I see now that a lot of stuff that I wanted before was really kinda dumb and didn't really mean as much as I thought it meant to me. At least with the dream catcher, my mom can agree that it's something worth putting on my body for the rest of my life, lol.

I kind of value my body bare-ness though.... Makes me feel pure. I got a lot of peircings though, lol. But peircings can be taken out easily and closed up.... They're not drawn on your body forever...

Now a days, finding a person without any tattoos is a dime in a dozen. It's like fishing for the virgin in a room full of sluts. It's kinda hard.

So do I stay the only virgin with no ink..... Or do I cave in to the rest of the sluts gettin' writtin' up....?

Guess I'll just have to see what happens.

Right now it's just in my thoughts though.

Cause I'm gettin' a belly button ring first! Lol.

And that will probably be this summer as soon as I get the money.

If anyone is wondering: A belly button peircing cost no more than $40. If it's more than that then try asking other shops to see the best price. But it really should be no more than that.

-Oh Alessandra, Alessandra, Alessandra

Victoria Secret model: Alessandra Ambrosio. And my favorite.

As much as some people may think that she really has no tits, I actually would love to have those. They're a cool size. I mean, I love my tits, but it's one thing to love em' and it's another to actually have to live with em'. Women.... You know what I'm talking about. And I mean, look at that face.

To die for.

+Question Time!

It been a minute since I've actually done one of these segments on my blog, but I'm bringin' it back, lol.

This segment's Catagory is...: The best way to....

1. The best way to shake a girl from contacting you again is to...

-You could change your number, although that would be going to an extreme extent.... So maybe you could just ignore her. And if she ask you in person why you haven't been texting or calling her back, just say that you didn't have a phone or that it was out of service. Or you've been busy.... Or you're just fucked.

2. The best way to get someone to do what you want is....

-Money.

3. The best way to pass a test for a class you never studied for is....

-Cheat. NEXT.

4. The best way to pull off some ugly ass shoes is to....

-Cover them up with some really baggy ass jeans..... Or wing it and walk around in some socks or something.

5. The best way to act like you're awake when you're not is to....

-Paint your eyelids or wear shades, but still try to keep your head up and alive.

6. The best way to eat something you don't like in a public setting is to....

-Swallow it before you actually taste it. It hurts less to do that.

7. The best way to get a guy whipped by you is to....

-Be independent. And never be attentive. Niggas try harder when a girl doesn't pay attention to them. He makes a joke in the back of the class and you sittin' in the front: Don't even turn around. Let him make that joke again, NEXT to you. Then laugh.

8. The best way to meet new people in weird places is to....

-Accidently bump into them...? Then ask them what brings them there in the first place. They're probably just as weird as you are.

9. The best way to get over an ex is to.....

-Get under another special somebody.

10. The best way to excercise is to.....

-Do it right before you shower and do it while playing music.

11. The best way to sleep is....

-Naked.

12. The best way to watch a boring movie that you don't really wanna watch on a date is to...

-Go get popcorn and take forever, and then come back and say that the line was long as shit.

With help from my brother Kevin, lol, I have completed another segment of Question Time.

-Dryyy

Ok, so I finally got threw putting my name as a label for ALL of my blogs. I've been trying to get it done for some time now....and I used tonight to do it. I didn't do this before when I started writing because I was always afraid of having some weirdo know my name and look me up and shit.... But as I'm getting older and becoming a more skilled and exceptional writer, I'm realising that I'm writing some pretty heavy and deep shit.... That I want people to know I WROTE. So I just went ahead and smacked my name on everything I've done so far. It took me a while because I obviously wrote a lot, but it's worth it...

And hell..... I mean, if a nigga's gonna take time out of their day to look me up, they might as well see my accomplishments along with my passion as well. Give em' a whiff of the type of person I am. I own that.

Now I'm just sitting here.... Next to my finished cup of tea, like I do like every night.

I'm kind of ready to go back to school now. I think that the summer is nice..... But I can't take anymore of these boring days..... With nothing to do..... Nowhere to go..... No dick.

I think I've been a little sex crazy for a minute now.

Damn....

I haven't felt this way in a very long time.

But the separation from fucking has made me a little bit more family orientated though. I've been really focused on just being home and being steady with my family and work. That's a good thing..... Not that fucking was that much of a distraction.... It actually used to make my life easier, but just that I don't have to worry about finding a way to get it in cause I'm just trying to chill and be with my folks....

That's all.

Besides sex.... I wouldn't say that I really have any issue that I've been concerned with....

Ocasionally, I think about what my next semester as a Sophmore in college is gonna be like.... But that's normal.

Guess I'm just out of thoughts....?

Cheers To: Elizabeth Vashisht.

Fucking Beautiful. She was my favorite on Tough Love New Orleans. I've never seen any other women as gorgeous as she..... Jesus.